Okay guys, the countdown is officially on. Let's see: In 5 hours I'll be on my way to Courtney's. In 18 hours, I'll be on my way to the airport. In 32 hours, I'll be on my last plane ride (Barcelona bound) and in about 40 hours, I'll be w/ my Baby!!! :)
Week #5 has sucked. I have had the worst migraine of my life for the last 3 days. In about 30 minutes, I am going to get a migraine shot though (praise the Lord). Before this horrendous headache hit (like my alliteration?), I was super productive. I cooked 2 meals from scratch (or mostly) (Spaghetti, and Veggie Beef Soup); I perfected my fajita quesadillas; I spent 1.5 hours cleaning my bathroom; I did laundry; I packed all my stuff. No wonder I got a migraine after all of that ;)
I also got the best deal ever. I got a 5 piece very nice (and unisex) luggage set for $150! It's super nice and I can't wait to take it to Spain. Speaking of Spain, I cannot wait to go and have an awesome adventure w/ my Lil, my fiance, and all of his new friends! Oh, did I mention, I will get to watch Spain in the semis of the World Cup my first day there!! Oh so excited...is it 5 yet?
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Week # 4 "Sisters Are Doing It For Themselves"
So it's exactly 7 days until I will be on my flight(s) to Spain! I have been 4 weeks without Chris (and almost exactly a month). I have been emotional this week. I have missed Chris terribly. However, I've had some really great moments. Courtney and Matt came and spent the weekend with me and we had such a good time. Any time I get real bummed about being from Sanford, I think of my few good Sanford friends and I can't imagine my life without them (*Courtney and Matt are from Sanford too). I also saw my awesome stepsister on Saturday when we walked a 5k together. After an awesome Friday and Saturday w/ the Quinns, they left and I went out for Father's Day w/ my Mom and Stepdad. It was a really good time. I've been a little lonely this work week, but I've stayed busy (mostly w/ TV). However, I was more productive. I did some laundry this week, along w/ more dishes. Also, I am obsessed w/ fruit. I have eaten sooo much fruit this week. It's amazing how much more I can afford since I'm just eating for one. Finally, today (which is technically week 5, but whatever) I found the most awesome luggage set. I got a 5 piece American Flyer set (which Chris will love) for $150!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Week #3 "1 Is The Loneliest Number"
3 Weeks Down, 2 To Go (For the First Part). Overall, I'm getting used to being by myself, but I've noticed I'm getting a little lonely and depressed at times. I have taken for granted being able to talk to and confide in someone after a long day's work. Lately I've been frustrated because my knees and ankle isn't really getting any better which makes me not want to do my PT stretches. If Chris were here, he'd be able to give me a morale boost and a hug. But since he's not, I find myself wallowing a little bit. No crying, just a little bit of "poor Stephanie". The good news is I'm still doing my stretches some and working out some. I'm also looking at joining a gym so that I can take classes.
As for the homemaker side of me, I've done better. Last weekend, I vacuumed, did some laundry, and picked up. The only thing I didn't get to were the bathrooms. I'm hoping to at least do mine tonight. I am still slacking off on the cooking, but I've realized that if I make a big pot of something, I'm stuck with it all week long. That isn't fun. So, I am making a lot of sandwiches, eating soup, eating a TON of fruit, and relying only a little on frozen dinners. I did buy some ground beef last night, so I'll cook that up for various things. I have also started putting lemon in my water b/c MSN says it helps with water retention and your metabolism (FYI).
This next week should be pretty fun. Courtney and Matt are coming down Friday, there is a 5k on Saturday (which I will walk with my sister..so it's not too depressing), and Father's Day on Sunday. Then I can really star washing clothes and sorting clothes for Spain!
As for the homemaker side of me, I've done better. Last weekend, I vacuumed, did some laundry, and picked up. The only thing I didn't get to were the bathrooms. I'm hoping to at least do mine tonight. I am still slacking off on the cooking, but I've realized that if I make a big pot of something, I'm stuck with it all week long. That isn't fun. So, I am making a lot of sandwiches, eating soup, eating a TON of fruit, and relying only a little on frozen dinners. I did buy some ground beef last night, so I'll cook that up for various things. I have also started putting lemon in my water b/c MSN says it helps with water retention and your metabolism (FYI).
This next week should be pretty fun. Courtney and Matt are coming down Friday, there is a 5k on Saturday (which I will walk with my sister..so it's not too depressing), and Father's Day on Sunday. Then I can really star washing clothes and sorting clothes for Spain!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Happy Birthday Baby!
Today the love of my life turns 27! It just so happens that his birthday falls on the same day as his scheduled "Catamaran Jazz minicruise along the Barcelona coast". Lucky dog! Anyway, I miss him very much today and wish I could give him birthday besos. I love you and can't wait to see you in 2.5 weeks. Have an awesome day!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Week # 2: "Home Sweet Home"
Okay, so I have two weeks under my belt and in just a few days I'll be halfway through the first 5 weeks without Chris. I have titled this entyr after my beloved Motley Crue. I have spent almost every night this week alone and at home and have quite enjoyed myself. It seems that my sadness and loneliness is over and I'm settling into a routine. I've definately had some frustrations this week, but being able to chat w/ Chris over IM (since Skype hates us) several times a day has been really helpful. So here's my week:
Last Friday was the last night with my Dad. As of Saturday morning, I was alone again. After last weekend, I was very nervous about how I would do during the weekend. Turns out, I did just fine. Saturday I bought a TON of fruit and just had a nice day at home. I even worked out twice this day. Sunday was also pretty nice. I worked out, went to the pool. and saw Sex and The City 2 (I liked it better than the first; it's a real pick-me-up). Then came the work week. Ashley was gone for most of it, so I was working hard. The week went by very fast. The highlight: SYTYCD is back for real and I love that show!
However, like I mentioned I had some frustrations this week. After running only 1.3 miles on Saturday, my "post-tibial" something-or-other was hurting. Back story: after my March 5k, I started having this pain and up until Tuesday I thought it was my achilles; it's not. I ended up working out twice on Saturday and once on Sunday, but was unable to do anything on Monday due to the pain in my knees and ankle. I went to PT on Tuesday and I was still feeling very frustrated. I've paid about $300 for PT this past month and seemingly have no results. I left with a little more understanding about what's going on and some new stretches. However, I am still very frustrated and am afraid I'll never run again due to my genetic injury (I pronate very bad and when I bend, my knees always jut out to one side or the other). If I can't run, or do any exercise for long periods of time, I'm scared I'll get fat again...Speaking of which..I have had another frustration this week. It seems my abdomen is very bloated and feels like it's retaining a lot of water. I understand I've gained about 4 pounds since my engagement, but b/c of the water, it's more like 6 or 7. This has gone on for the entire week and I'm getting very tired of it.
As you can see, I have not given myself any positive or negative stars this week. I find that although I am ecstatic that I am not lonely and sad any longer, I am upset about my body and that has caused me to be lazy around the house. So, I don't want to give myself a negative score (and make myself feel worse), so I am abstaining from rating myself.
My goals for week 3: Continue to work out 5 days a week to the best of my ability and tackle my PT stretches. (My PT stretches tend to hurt my knees and ankle so it's hard to get them done). I WILL DO THE LAUNDRY! I will continue to stay on top of the dishes and clean my bathroom. I WILL COOK and not take the easy way out.
Last Friday was the last night with my Dad. As of Saturday morning, I was alone again. After last weekend, I was very nervous about how I would do during the weekend. Turns out, I did just fine. Saturday I bought a TON of fruit and just had a nice day at home. I even worked out twice this day. Sunday was also pretty nice. I worked out, went to the pool. and saw Sex and The City 2 (I liked it better than the first; it's a real pick-me-up). Then came the work week. Ashley was gone for most of it, so I was working hard. The week went by very fast. The highlight: SYTYCD is back for real and I love that show!
However, like I mentioned I had some frustrations this week. After running only 1.3 miles on Saturday, my "post-tibial" something-or-other was hurting. Back story: after my March 5k, I started having this pain and up until Tuesday I thought it was my achilles; it's not. I ended up working out twice on Saturday and once on Sunday, but was unable to do anything on Monday due to the pain in my knees and ankle. I went to PT on Tuesday and I was still feeling very frustrated. I've paid about $300 for PT this past month and seemingly have no results. I left with a little more understanding about what's going on and some new stretches. However, I am still very frustrated and am afraid I'll never run again due to my genetic injury (I pronate very bad and when I bend, my knees always jut out to one side or the other). If I can't run, or do any exercise for long periods of time, I'm scared I'll get fat again...Speaking of which..I have had another frustration this week. It seems my abdomen is very bloated and feels like it's retaining a lot of water. I understand I've gained about 4 pounds since my engagement, but b/c of the water, it's more like 6 or 7. This has gone on for the entire week and I'm getting very tired of it.
As you can see, I have not given myself any positive or negative stars this week. I find that although I am ecstatic that I am not lonely and sad any longer, I am upset about my body and that has caused me to be lazy around the house. So, I don't want to give myself a negative score (and make myself feel worse), so I am abstaining from rating myself.
My goals for week 3: Continue to work out 5 days a week to the best of my ability and tackle my PT stretches. (My PT stretches tend to hurt my knees and ankle so it's hard to get them done). I WILL DO THE LAUNDRY! I will continue to stay on top of the dishes and clean my bathroom. I WILL COOK and not take the easy way out.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Week #1: "Here I Go Again On My Own"
So Chris left me last Thursday evening and has been in Spain for a week (tomorrow). I decided that I would chronicle my Summer life in my blog. I figured it should be very interesting (seeing as how Chris does everything for me at home). Each week will have a different song title to describe my week (and rating things I accomplish, or lack there of). Here's what happened in Week #1:
I was super worried that I wouldn't be able to fall asleep alone in the apartment because I envision people breaking in to rape and kill me (and have been doing so since college). The last time he was gone I barely slept and kept my keys next to the bed at all times (in case I had to jump out my 3rd story window and hobble to my car, of course). However, color me surprised when I fell asleep no problem. In fact, every night I've been home alone, I find that as long as I stay up until I'm really tired, I sleep just fine. YAY! I give myself ***** (5 stars) on this one!
After the first night alone, I went to Mom's to stay w/ her and have a girls' weekend. We had a lot of fun and I was really sad to come back home Sunday morning. Sunday and Monday (Memorial Day) were kinda hard for me. I broke down a little bit and actually cried (which was something I vowed not to do). I filled my time with movies, True Blood reruns, and the pool, but it's hard being so isolated with no one around to spend time with. I give myself * (1 star) on dealing with a weekend alone.
I was able to brush myself off and pick myself up in time to return to work on Tuesday. In fact, I was feeling so pumped that I not only went grocery store, but I cooked my own dinner. Now, that may seem really mundane for most of you, but let me tell you this is a big deal in my world. It seems that, usually, any time I touch a knife to cut something up, I always knick myself, always! However, I cooked myself a steak, peppers, and onion quesadilla (but fajita style) and most of it came out very well. I had too much of all 3 components and the peppers weren't thin enough, but overall, it was edible and yummy. I give myself **** (4 stars) on this.
Last night (Wednesday), my Dad came to visit to ease my loneliness. He is staying until Saturday morning. It is nice to see him because I rarely get any time, let alone QT, with him.
Another one of my goals has been to keep the house (especially the kitchen) a lot cleaner. In one week, I have kept the kitchen and the sink clean and have been on top of the dishes. Funny side note: 1 person = 1 load of dishes per week. 2 people = 4-6 loads of dishes per week. Crazy huh? I haven't done so great with the laundry though. I have not done any of it, or cleaned my bathtub, or vacuumed. I give myself *** (3 stars) on cleaning this week.
Now, as of tomorrow, I will be on Week #2. My hopes are as follows 1) I will not cry, 2) I will not be super lonely and sad this weekend, 3) I will cook 2 new meals this week, and 4) I will continue to keep up with the dishes and tackle more domestic duties.
I was super worried that I wouldn't be able to fall asleep alone in the apartment because I envision people breaking in to rape and kill me (and have been doing so since college). The last time he was gone I barely slept and kept my keys next to the bed at all times (in case I had to jump out my 3rd story window and hobble to my car, of course). However, color me surprised when I fell asleep no problem. In fact, every night I've been home alone, I find that as long as I stay up until I'm really tired, I sleep just fine. YAY! I give myself ***** (5 stars) on this one!
After the first night alone, I went to Mom's to stay w/ her and have a girls' weekend. We had a lot of fun and I was really sad to come back home Sunday morning. Sunday and Monday (Memorial Day) were kinda hard for me. I broke down a little bit and actually cried (which was something I vowed not to do). I filled my time with movies, True Blood reruns, and the pool, but it's hard being so isolated with no one around to spend time with. I give myself * (1 star) on dealing with a weekend alone.
I was able to brush myself off and pick myself up in time to return to work on Tuesday. In fact, I was feeling so pumped that I not only went grocery store, but I cooked my own dinner. Now, that may seem really mundane for most of you, but let me tell you this is a big deal in my world. It seems that, usually, any time I touch a knife to cut something up, I always knick myself, always! However, I cooked myself a steak, peppers, and onion quesadilla (but fajita style) and most of it came out very well. I had too much of all 3 components and the peppers weren't thin enough, but overall, it was edible and yummy. I give myself **** (4 stars) on this.
Last night (Wednesday), my Dad came to visit to ease my loneliness. He is staying until Saturday morning. It is nice to see him because I rarely get any time, let alone QT, with him.
Another one of my goals has been to keep the house (especially the kitchen) a lot cleaner. In one week, I have kept the kitchen and the sink clean and have been on top of the dishes. Funny side note: 1 person = 1 load of dishes per week. 2 people = 4-6 loads of dishes per week. Crazy huh? I haven't done so great with the laundry though. I have not done any of it, or cleaned my bathtub, or vacuumed. I give myself *** (3 stars) on cleaning this week.
Now, as of tomorrow, I will be on Week #2. My hopes are as follows 1) I will not cry, 2) I will not be super lonely and sad this weekend, 3) I will cook 2 new meals this week, and 4) I will continue to keep up with the dishes and tackle more domestic duties.
Monday, May 24, 2010
T Minus 3 days
So, I just found Chris' blog ( http://planestrainsandspaniards.blogspot.com/ ) and it made me think about him leaving. I am so proud of myself for how I've done so far. The last time Chris left me, he went to River Falls, WI for 4 days (Summer 2008). I cried a lot before he left and carried on and such. I realize this did me no good, but waste the time I had with him before he left. I know 4 days sounds silly to you folks, but previous to this, the longest we had been apart is about 13 hours. So, now he's leaving for 8 weeks to go study in Barcelona and I have managed to only cry sporadically for like 2 minutes at a time. His newest blog referenced him measuring time by "lasts" not days. I realize I've done this too. Examples: This past weekend was our last weekend together. Tonight we are going on our last date night. Tomorrow we are going to Suzanne and JT's for the last time before he leaves. I have found that I am able to have fun and really savor the time I have with him. He will leave me on Thursday and leave the US on Friday. I have 5 weeks to go before Lil and I got to Barcelona (and Pamplona). Then, it's the home stretch, only 12 days until he returns.
In order to stay happy I keep thinking about the positives: 1) I can watch Big Brother and SYTYCD and he won't yell at me. 2) I can watch any soap opera of my choosing. 3) No Mythbusters, Family Guy, Simpsons, etc. (YAY!) 4) Groceries will be half as much (as will gas and 5k admissions). 5) I get to take up the whole bed instead of cramping in between Chris, Booger, and Riley. 6) I will have skype. 7) I will learn to cook and take care of myself (Chris waits on me hand and foot and is amazing for that).
We'll see how depressed I get, but for now, I'm positive. The only truly scary thing is that I am afraid to go to sleep all alone at night.
I love you Baby and can't wait to have a rendezvous in Europe (just like some old movie, I'm sure).
In order to stay happy I keep thinking about the positives: 1) I can watch Big Brother and SYTYCD and he won't yell at me. 2) I can watch any soap opera of my choosing. 3) No Mythbusters, Family Guy, Simpsons, etc. (YAY!) 4) Groceries will be half as much (as will gas and 5k admissions). 5) I get to take up the whole bed instead of cramping in between Chris, Booger, and Riley. 6) I will have skype. 7) I will learn to cook and take care of myself (Chris waits on me hand and foot and is amazing for that).
We'll see how depressed I get, but for now, I'm positive. The only truly scary thing is that I am afraid to go to sleep all alone at night.
I love you Baby and can't wait to have a rendezvous in Europe (just like some old movie, I'm sure).
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